am doing a blog a day for the next few weeks.

so read and enjoy my insanity rambling and brain farts.

i honestly..

Do not know why i bother with you sometimes.

you only ever tease me.

bitch about me.

bitch at me.

and critic me for every little thing.

and then i seem down or quiet and you ask me whats wrong?

DONT TELL ME I AM FUCKING LUCKY.

i forget to blog sometimes

but i always love to do it

recently i have been going through what i describe as small victories. things or principles that you win that on their own are not life changing results but add to up what eventually becfomes good or even grweat days.

i have won many victories and although i may have failed to mention have got some amazing friends. including  vicky jess holly elliott dan gracie imy beth sam and plam and chloe (I WENT THERE VICKY.)

i am so grteful to all these guys and i have had an absolute blast this past year.



hears to another 2 and a half great ones.

....up to date

Paranormal Activity
the hobbit
pitch perfect
science museam
chinese restuarant
TGI Fridays
My Flat
Her Flat
All over london
TGI x3

And next to Romford.

Im sure ive missed some stuff

Ive found myself a romana Flowers.

And she is perfect.

Today...

I caught up with an old face.

An old part of the history that makes Captain Pugwash,

Ben Collins Jones.



I met Grace in two of my classes on the first day of my As Taster day at the extremely popular Sussex Downs College

Intially French where we just smiled, then immediately after i met this "Grace" in my drama class.

within weeks we became the go to couple to demonstrate the various tasks our by all means eccentric teacher set us, including a sexual tension, arguement, loved up, and out of love tasks.

There was once a time when i was in love with girl, it is incredible complicated the story but one of the best moments we had was when we had to complete an onstage kiss during our final piece.

(in hindsight i realise our teacher had inteneded to get us together from the outset)

during a full reheasral of our play for the first time she said right then Ben, Grace time for that kiss, have you done it before together? and we both looked a little sheepish. the started the scene and when the kiss came we went for it. and when it was finished we both became very aware that 35 other students had all stopped their plays to watch us. we both laughed and gracie patted me on the face and said "not bad."

three months later things escalated. a week after that me and grace didnt talk.

two years passed and i made a phone call to try and make the amends grace had tried so many times to do.

and she let me.

im thanful for that because i was told by a wise old dear that over your life you meet many great people but only 5 do you bond with to such a way that you love them. but not necessarily in love with them.

Grace is one of those people to me.

she has never recieved a proper serious blog before from me so this is it. an old friend.

a best friend.

on the way

are a couple of blogs heads up