SCREW IT.

This is one of three posts tonight.

i am now single. havebeen for a little while not long but some time, but during this time i discovered i have a unusual habit.

i do not drink regulary, it is only recently i have added the regulary. i was sat in my friends living room merely a month after i had ended a two year relationship with a girl i was still very much in love with.

having held off on the drinks i was still quite sober when my dear friend spun round and spat out "do not check facebook."

now the normal response for someone who is told not to do this. AUTOMATICALLLLLY (with 4 L's) checks facebook.

and low and behold right there in BIG BOLD FECKING LETTERS 

she was in a relationship.

now what happened next? did the world slow down? did the entire existance of my being fall apart into a balck abyss that was lefdt with nothing but my soul as a lingered and what i had lost?

i infact shouted screw it downed a bottle of apple sours and then single handedly destroyed a fish bowl. (a large bowl of alcohol)

screaming screw it will trigger me to do something impulsive without any reason or logic involved.

this is a dangerous new habit.