who am i?

I'm 20 years old.
Im single.
Im free to do whatever i want.

I've been to three club events in two days.
I've been to a house party
I've administered first aid to two people.

I've be chastised by two people who have no right.

I've got a morning radio show with no co-host.
and i dont know what to do with it.

carry on as you were.

2633.

Im always bewildered by human behaviour.

a girl who doesnt "know" how attractive she is.
a man so convinced with his own skills he refuses help. Despite being unable, or unskilled.
a persons lack of skill in knowing when they are in the wrong.
or when they just dont know where the line is.

I've dealt with all of this in the last 48 hours so i just want to say.

Stop.

Please.

Time for a rant

Now i am just as guilty of this as anyone, we all grow up and from time to time get so wrapped up in our own stuff that all else seems unimportant, i do like to say however i'm one of the first or quickest to realize when i am doing this,and if a friend or family member ask a favour i more often then not drop everything and help where i can, sometimes i only drop somethings and help a little bit because come on i need to do somethings for myself from time to time.

However,

I live in a flat in london with my father.
i have never lived wigth him before and this has been one of the best 12 months to date.
i pay rent in food pizza cinema and videogames.
i have a job working with crappy managers and generally dont enjoy it, to pay my rent.
I attend Uni and all in all pay my own way most of the time in life.

This includes:

Food
clothes
toiletries
hobbies/personal stuff
Day trips, nights out or general socializing with mates

Your 18.
You Live at home
have a job where you work nights
get paid more then me to sit at a desk and wake someone up if there is a problem.
the time you've worked there you had to deal with one problem
a resident wanted a glass water and some toast.
You rely on mummy or BF to pay for your
Food
clothes
toiletries
hobbies/personal stuff
Holidays.
Day trips, nights out or general socializing with mates

You attend uni in September and not even taken out a maintenance loan cause "mummy" is gonna pay the next 3 years for you.

And all i ask is you take 5 minutes out your day to spend £1 to help me out so that i don't have to spend £30 to do it myself.

Grow. Up.
Your 18.
And Little Miss princess shit will get old fast at Uni

Rant// Over//

am i in love with anyone?

short answer no, i have no dying need or desire for anyone in my life, i have loved people previously and have been hurt because of it.


im single and love it.

My dating life: Gracie (iii)

Now i met this girl in a french lesson and plucked up the courage to ask her for her number, i found out she lived in battle and that she would be traveling to our college on a daily basis

I thought that was mental, 6 months later i would be commuting with grace part of her journey daily then carry on my journey for another hour, funny how things work out.

We went on a date, i traveled to Hastings to meet her and having learnt from my previous mistakes actually took her out and we went to see 500 Days Of Summer in the local cinema; those of you who vacant this and http://braceletsandbangles.blogspot.co.uk/ may suddenly have a large key in one of the many riddles that exist.

We snuggled into the seats of the cinema and i think we stole a kiss or two.
the film over and the day still young we went back to her house in battle where i met her father and her sister, and then made my way home quite happy with how things had gone.

now the next few weeks are a distant blur but we missed each other, we both spent the next year as best friends, however i was in and out of relationships, and she had one, a special one.

now i have never openly said this before, but i was in love with her, jealous of guys who hugged her, the girls who spent time with her and above all else i hated pasta boy. 

we both had drama together and our favorite teacher Nicola both "shipped" us and hoped we got together, one girl lucy gabe even tried to get me to ask her out before i left the college once and for all.

due to my mum getting a new job i relocated to Kent and me and grace spent more and more time together as we commuted to college. I had a three hour train journey in the morning to uni and 3 and half in the evening, i spent as much time commuting as i did in my actual college, but i put up with that ridiculous point because i got to see her.

one weekend after we all finished for the year there was a leaving party at my new house in my honor. duirn a night of drinking and relaxing me and grace cuddled up togther on the floor.

it was here i admitted to grace that i was in love with her 

that lead to one of the best weekends of my life.

then a few of the worse months of my life,

if i went back and presented with the same situtation i would do it again.

My Dad told me one evening after that weekend that "You never regret what you did You regret what you didnt do."

and That Old bastard was right

There Is still 5 chapter in this series
ill release one every tuesday

i know i have said this before but...

I LOVE THE GEEK COMMUNITY

three random people met tonight while playing video games so here it is my new favourtie conversation while playing a video game

Dragonknight1223: yeah they added a whole new ton of shit to fight now and
FIREBALL786: WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?
flowergirl4: WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?
Me: FUCKING RUN.

*all 4 of us hide in a cupboard to escape the monsters*
Me: you reckon its safe to go out there?
Dragonknight1223: nope, it never will be, this is a demonstration of how society has crumbled and we are all forced to hide from democracy, we will now create our own society in this fucking cupboard and live out our lives in here.
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FIREBALL786: i know were both dudes but as this is a fucking cupboard Pugwash so can we bang?

i love video game geeks.

I love it when...

New people follow my blog i dont know why but i feel slightly all warm a fuzzy inside!


so here's too http://graciel0u.blogspot.co.uk/ !

a new follower who seems to have a cool blog so check it out!